C Stands For Cipher And For …
One flaw I have always not liked about myself is the fear that I have of the new.
I worry and fret about how I do not know/understand/comprehend/be skilled enough on unknowns that I end up not doing it altogether. Driving, cooking, watching my health, heck even fixing broken friendships; all these things if are too much of a variable for me, I would shun it away, or put it off, and pretend it was not that important to begin with. This has caused me life-altering, albeit thankfully non-catastrophic effects on my life.
God blessed me with all the talent, skills, and abilities I need to fulfill His Will, yet I was not making the most of it. Dereliction of duty, if you will. But this is why I deem Consie as my greatest asset.
She has a quality of inner strength and self-confidence that is such a radiant part of her person. She encourages me to do things I would never have done on my own. Just this past week,see the things that I have done that I thought I never would do.
- I can now actually drive an automobile. Yes, my California based buddies, that is not a typo.
- I prepared, grilled and served hamburgers for lunch today. This is significant if one remembers my unique ability to cook so bad that I saw first hand that if one abandons boiling water long enough, smoke can come from the metal pot. I am lucky the state of New Jersey still allows me anywhere near a kitchen.
- I actually studied and am able to do, by myself, a Double Windsor Tie Knot. Which was caused by …
- I got my first suit! Oh my, I am turning to an adult, I daresay. The tie was motivated by the suit, and considering that I have repeatedly sworn that I shall wear a tie on two more times from now on; my wedding, and my funeral. Darn it how was supposed to know I can carry a suit like that?
- Lose the sandbag of adipose around me I have been lugging around since … I don’t know ? 1996? And be in better fitness and conditioning than I have ever been in my entire life.
Consie has always said to me: " See what happens when you don’t give in the the fear? "
To which I say: " See how far I have come since the you, my God-given-gift, came into my life?"
