Flashback Sequence Time!
Much has changed since the last time I blogged in.
Sometimes, this feeling of being overwhelmed stops me from placing fingertips
on the key board like I should, but as Althea once said to me (and I am
paraphrasing here): you just have to start doing it again.
I sometimes concern myself a lot with the little things too
much: my grammar is off, the structure is wrong; I am a sell out for not
pursuing writing, as I should if I really did love it. But after thinking about
it, all that matters is the fluidity of thoughts and ideas to the printed
screen or text, and that is therapeutic enough by itself.
A scary part of blogging as well is it documents and makes
one accountable for the feelings, ideas and emotions that course through ones
self that day. I surmise that it is this forced reflection if you will, on the
decisions of the day, for ill or for good that can stop one from laying your
thoughts down to paper for all to see.
2006 has been good to me.
By January, I have been able to come home to the Philippines
after five years, yet found myself detached from the land that I lived in for
the first 22 years of my life. I was able to meet family and friends again, and
it was good, but I sensed that I have grown and changed within myself that I do
not know them, as I thought they know not who am I after the five-year gap.
I came back, and immersed myself in work again. Life
in the hospital was fun while it lasted, but I realized the longer I stayed
that I am not as gifted with the abilities and desire to help patients in such
a debilitated state to health. Time for change was nearing.
